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Healing School vision from 2018... I saw above me the Lamb of God, as though He had been slain, He was bleeding down upon me from the place of sacrifice... The cross.


The spear pierced His side and ruptured His heart, then out flowed blood & water. Then came the honey. It was flowing from His broken heart to heal my broken heart.


Healing honey & blood flowed from the pure white fleece of the Lamb of God. Healing balm. It flowed into my soul... It was cleansing me of evil, darkness, & disease... Purging my sin.


Then I saw the Lion of Judah... A mighty Lion...He was a wellspring of healing honey... Honey that would heal every sickness & strengthen every soul. I was reminded of Samson when he saw the dead lion with honey in its body & he ate. It is by the death of the Lion of the Tribe of Judah that we have this healing balm.

 
 
 

Years ago I had strange symptoms of sickness in my body that grew worse and worse. Doctors had no answers for me. Some gave vague diagnosis', but offered no cure. Their solutions continually failed.


I eventually gave up on doctors, and turned to prayer and fasting only, which I was rebuked for by many Christians in my life, yet it was the answer, and my deliverance/healing came through it.


God has always spoken to me in dreams, exposing the enemy, revealing truth, wisdom, and giving me answers. One night, God gave me a dream about my sickness: turns out the sickness WAS A DEMON.


In the dream a demon grabbed me from behind. It wrapped its arms around me tightly, and screetched, "Why don't you just go to your grave! Go to your grave!!" I could feel it trying to kill me through sickness.


It was very strong and scary, but I could also feel it's frustration and confusion. It was vexed that it was exerting all it's power against me, and I would not die like it wanted me to. I felt it's anger emanating from it... angry at me because I wasn't as sick as it wanted me to be.


The reason for this was that I resisted the demon and trusted in God, and sought Him vehemently through repentance, prayer, worship and fasting. Eventually, this was my deliverance and my healing.


I shouted back at the demon, "I REBUKE YOU IN JESUS NAME!!!" We wrestled in this dream, the demon of sickness and I. It cursed me, and I rebuked it.


Suddenly, I was aware of God Almighty standing on the other side of a closed door. I began to scream for my "DADDY".


I NEVER called God "Daddy"... ever. Only in one other dream before this. I never called my earthly father "Daddy". It's not a word in my vocabulary. But in this dream there was no other word on the planet more natural to me. It just popped out. It was like I was four years old and some man was kidnapping me, and my Daddy was standing there at that door to save me.


I knew that if only my Daddy could hear me call Him, I would be delivered from this spirit of death.


Dreams from God are like that sometimes. In the dream, you find yourself just doing things outside of your own volition/will. This is the Holy Spirit taking control of you and the dream in order to teach you what you should be doing, and you see the results of it in the dream.


Suddenly, my Heavenly Father flung that door wide open, and the light of God beamed into the darkness of that battle. My Father came to my rescue. I knew all would be well because now my Daddy was there.


I woke up. It's now many years later, and I no longer wrestle with that demon or that sickness. Healed.


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Fact: sometimes sickness can be 100% demonic. The symptoms are physical, the condition can even be diagnosed, but the source is a demon. SIN will open doors to demons and sickness, even unto death, so heed this warning, and take courage in the hope and wisdom my testimony offers.


God showed me later that I had given that demon access through sin. It's a biblical fact that SIN will open the door to demons, sickness and death. You can fast, pray, say sorry, worship, but if you do not cease from that certain door opening SIN in your life, you will find yourself wrestling long and hard with no victory. Jesus continually preached for people to REPENT AND TURN AWAY FROM THEIR SINS. We reap what we sow.


So learn from me. This is why God has me post with such transparency... because what He does for me, He will do for YOU! God can break any chains of sin, cast out any demon, heal any disease. He is God and He is good.


✨ ️✨️SCRIPTURE CONFIRMATION ✨️✨️


📖 LUKE 13:11-13

"And behold, there was a woman who had a SPIRIT OF INFIRMITY eighteen years, and was bent over and could in no way raise herself up. But when Jesus saw her, He called her to Him and said to her, 'Woman, you are loosed from your infirmity.' And He laid His hands on her, and immediately she was made straight, and glorified God."


📖 MATTHEW 9:32-33

"As they went out, behold, they brought to Him a man, mute and demon-possessed. And WHEN THE DEMON WAS CAST OUT, THE MUTE SPOKE. And the multitudes marveled..."


📖 MARK 9:17-29 NKJV

"'Teacher, I brought You my son, who has a mute spirit. And wherever it seizes him, it throws him down; he foams at the mouth, gnashes his teeth, and becomes rigid. So I spoke to Your disciples, that they should cast it out, but they could not.' He answered him and said, 'Oh faithless generation, how long shall I be with you? How long shall I bear with you? Bring him to Me.'... He rebuked the unclean spirit, saying to it: 'Deaf and dumb spirit, I command you, come out of him and enter him no more!' Then the spirit cried out, convulsed him greatly, and came out of him... Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him up, and he arose. And when He had come into the house, His disciples asked Him privately, 'Why could we not cast it out?' So He said to them, 'THIS KIND CAN COME OUT BY NOTHING BUT PRAYER AND FASTING.'"


📖 JAMES 4:7-10

"Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Lament and mourn and weep! Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up.


📖 LUKE 10:19

"Behold, I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy.


📖 ISAIAH 58:6, 8-9

“Is this not THE FAST THAT I HAVE CHOSEN: to LOOSE THE BONDS OF WICKEDNESS, to undo the heavy burdens, to let the oppressed go free, and that you break every yoke?... Then YOUR LIGHT SHALL BREAK FORTH like the morning, YOUR HEALING SHALL SPRING FORTH SPEEDILY, and your righteousness shall go before you; The glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard. Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer; You shall cry, and He will say, ‘Here I am.’ “If you take away the yoke from your midst, The pointing of the finger, and speaking wickedness."


📖 ACTS 2:17

"And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God, That I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh; Your sons and your daughters SHALL PROPHESY, your young men shall SEE VISIONS, your old men SHALL DREAM DREAMS."


📖 JOB 33:14–18

“God speaks… in a dream… to turn man from wrongdoing and keep his soul from the Pit.”


📖 ROMANS 8:15

“You received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, ‘Abba, Father.’”


📖 GALATIANS 4:6

“God has sent forth the Spirit of His Son into your hearts, crying out, ‘Abba, Father!’”


📖 PSALM 34:17

“The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears.”


📖 EPHESIANS 4:26-27

“Be angry, and do not sin”: do not let the sun go down on your wrath, nor give place to the devil."


📖 JOHN 5:14

"JESUS SAID, “SIN NO MORE, LEST A WORSE THING COME UPON YOU.”


📖 Romans 6:23

“The wages of sin is death.”


📖 GALATIANS 6:7

“Whatever a man sows, that he will also reap.”


📖ACTS 3:19

“Repent therefore… that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord.”


📖 PSALM 103:2–3

“Who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases.”


📖 Psalm 38:3–5

“There is no soundness in my flesh because of Your anger, nor any health in my bones because of my sin.”


📖 Psalm 107:17–18

“Fools, because of their transgression… were afflicted.”


📖 Proverbs 14:30

“A sound heart is life to the body, but envy is rottenness to the bones.”


📖 Hosea 4:6

“My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge.”


📖 James 5:14–16

“…confess your trespasses to one another, and pray… that you may be healed.”


📖 James 1:14-15

But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, brings forth death.

 
 
 

In 2000 I had a dream. In the dream I saw a door. The door opened. My Dad walked out and approached me (My dad passed away in 2006 & was my spiritual father as well as my dad). He informed me that someone wanted to see me. That’s all he said. I knew who wanted to see me. I knew it was Jesus and that He was on the other side of that door.


I followed my Dad through that door. On the other side of that door was Jesus. He was seated at the head of a large, rectangular wooden table, muchl like the one I saw in my first dream. It was the same scene. Jesus, a rough wooden table and wooden chairs.


My Dad sat down at the table as well. He sat at the lower head of the table opposite Jesus. I saw my mom sitting at the table as well. She was seated beside my Dad at his right. My parents were both shining with a joy that was beaming like light. They shone so, because they were in the presence of Jesus Christ.


When I saw Jesus, I was filled with joy, excitement, desire, and indescribable awe.


I walked over to Him, because I knew He was the one who sent for me. Once I laid eyes on Jesus, I couldn’t take them off of Him. My focus was glued to Him. I sat down beside Him at the table at His left side. When I did, He moved His chair closer to me. I drew near to Him, then He drew near to me.


I could see in His countenance that He wanted to see me. He wanted to look at me. He was very happy to be in my presence. He missed me. I could see it clearly. He desired me. He yearned for me. I was in awe of this.


Suddenly my Dad exclaimed, “It’s Jesus!” He could not contain His joy and excitement. He presented the Lord to me in as much awe as I was in. It wasn’t until my Dad said those words that I looked directly into Jesus’ eyes. When I did, my undoing began.


His features were rugged and handsome. His hair was shoulder length, wavy, thick and dark brown. His eyes were deep, dark brown. I studied His face in wonderment. His whole body size was altogether larger than the average mortal. He had strong wide shoulders and He wore a rough, white/cream, one-piece garment down to His feet.


I gazed in adoring awe at His features. Although they were different than the first dream, what I saw in His eyes was absolutely the same. This was Jesus Christ my Savior and I KNEW it. I recognized my Lord. “My sheep know Me.”


As I beheld Him in mind boggling wonderment, I was thinking thoughts. I thought to myself, “Wow… it’s really Him! I’m truly in His literal presence. Finally! Finally I see the Lord! This is what He looks like! This is what it feels like!” I could reach out and touch Him if I dared. I knew it was Him from the deepest depths of my soul.


He was looking back at me with the same intensity, beholding me as well. He had a gentle smile, but a serious gaze. His gaze was of love and immovable strength. He knew my pleasure in seeing Him. He allowed me to behold Him. He just let me stare at Him in awe while He stared back at me.


I suddenly realized He knew my every thought. He knew my every emotion, desire and motivation. Nothing was hidden from Him. I was pleased with this. I knew I didn’t have to try to express my love and adoration with words, because He already knew. Words were useless in this face to face encounter, because He knew what my thoughts and feelings were before I would ever speak them and I knew He knew. We were communicating spirit to Spirit in deep immortal ways. Spoken words were totally useless. Words were too small a thing. The spiritual communication between us both was very intense as we were face to face with one another.

My mind was struck by astonishment, my soul was becoming undone and my spirit could only release floods of worship. Praise and worship were spontaneous reactions that began as soon as I laid eyes on Him. The only response to such everlasting perfection and glory can only be the deepest kind of gratitude, love and adoration equivalent to how much of Himself He reveals... hence the reason we fall on our faces as if dead when He manifests enough of Himself.


Humans do not have the strength in themselves to be such vessels for the equal spontaneous praise due Him. Unless His Spirit is there to strengthen us, we would die in the presence of His glory. Even those elders in Heaven who surround His throne fall on their faces and cast their crowns at His feet in response to who they see. The more of Himself He reveals, the more undone we are in worship, awe and the power of His manifested love. This is why humans are “slain in the Spirit” when they encounter Him.


He knew my worship. He received it unto Himself. He enjoyed it. My spirit, my soul and my mind continuously praised Him without words, full of rejoicing, love and awe. It was pouring forth from my utmost being like an unhindered fountain.


I felt so honored that He should appear to me and allow me to adore Him. I was astonished that He would allow me to see Him. I felt so privileged and so humbled. My humility expressed itself through worship and adoration. The greatest glory of Heaven after death has to be the everlasting privilege of being able to forever gaze into the face of Jesus. This is true “heaven”.


The feeling of it all was piercing. It severed through my being. The living Word was before me and His presence was a double edged sword searching me… knowing me, discerning my deepest thoughts and intentions. The sword pierced deeper and deeper. I thought these exact words, “He knows what I am thinking!” I rejoiced in this.


I contemplated this fact very deeply as I looked at His face, His gaze piercing deeper and deeper. “He knows what I am thinking… He knows I’m thinking the very thought that I know He knows what I’m thinking…”


My rejoicing suddenly turned to dread as the remembrance of my sin came to mind.


He knows my every thought! What if I had a bad thought?! I hoped I would not have any bad thoughts! I knew He knew I was thinking this! Dread increased. The battle for my thoughts commenced. I struggled immensely against bad thoughts at that moment. I fought against a filthy thought bombarding the threshold of my mind. I lost the battle. The evil thought was stronger and it broke through against all of my will and I immediately turned away from the Lord in the most mortified shame.


He was perfectly holy and pure, and I was sinful and dirty. I was ashamed and horrified. That’s when the Holy Spirit urged me from within the deepest parts of my being to look into the eyes of Jesus, so I did.


What I beheld was the most powerful thing a mortal can behold. His eyes were fire!


I didn’t know anything about any scripture describing Christ’s eyes like fire at that time. I had never read the whole Bible before. At first sight I was shocked and confused by the appearance of fire in His eyes. But as I continued to stare into His eyes, I saw eternal love and power at increased levels and I knew the One I was beholding was the everlasting Father, the Prince of Peace, the Son of God Jesus Christ (See Isa. 6:9).


My eyes locked to His. I was arrested and held captive by the fire in His eyes. His fiery gaze blasted away every evil thought and all anxiety I was previously experiencing was vanquished.


He had a single flame of fire in each eye, no pupil. His eternal gaze burned into my soul. It blasted away every demonic oppression coming against me. I saw wrath and love in His fiery eyes. Wrath against the enemy; love for me. He didn’t condemn me for the foul thoughts which plagued me and invaded my mind, instead He mercifully and lovingly delivered me from them. He consumed them with the fire in His blazing eyes.


I stared into His eyes for a long time and watched the fire burn. His eyes were in constant motion. The fire changed, blazed and swirled. The colors constantly changed from yellowish to orangish. The flames changed from single flame to swirling fire. They were small flames in each eye, no pupil, then a pupil would appear and the flames began to swirl with orange and yellow flames. Burning and blazing fire. I saw love and eternity and Omnipotent power.


I couldn’t look away. I didn’t want to look away. I was overwhelmed. He continued to smile gently as He gazed deep into my eyes and soul with unconditional love. My spirit/soul/mind began to rejoice and praise harder than before.


His eyes of love were burning into my utmost being. I felt such intense LOVE. He loved me! It wasn’t that I just knew it now, I could feel it. I could see the love in His fiery eyes and now I could feel it tangibly pouring into me as He stared at me. I felt His love in every fiber of my body, soul, spirit and mind. I was being baptized in His love.


The longer I stared into the eyes of the resurrected Lord Jesus Christ, the more of His love I felt, the stronger it came on me and in me, and I began to love Him more and more. It was a whirlwind of love between us. It was an intense mixture of His love and mine, but more of His love, because only through His love did I have love. The mere fact that He loved me this way made me love Him. I loved Him, because He first loved me…. Again.


This continued until I was becoming overwhelmed and some power came over me… a power that started in the middle of my utmost being and like a wave poured from out of my physical body. This powerful experience was not just happening in the “dream”, it happened to my body as it slept.


In the dream I put my head down as if bowing to Jesus in honor and my body suddenly collapsed down to the feet of Jesus and I began to cry. It was not a sad cry, I wept for His love. It was all I could do now. I was clinging on to His ankles, hugging His legs, feeling His unbelievable love for me, His incomprehensible power, knowing He knew what love I had for Him. No thoughts, just feeling He knew.


Then He put His hands on my head and said something about an anointing. And something happened like a rush going through me and I began to shake. I felt this in my physical body as well while it slept. This anointing straight from Christ’s hand was sent from dream to reality and this happened for a long time.


I finally got up and sat back in my chair. Jesus looked at me with a big smile filled with love, joy and excitement and He said, “I LOVE YOU AND SOMETHING GOOD IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO YOU.”


His voice was a drink of living waters; deep, masculine, gentle and perfect. A sound that holds the universe together. The way He looked at me and the smile He had was amazing.


Suddenly He was gone and I woke up.


Dare to seek His face. Be bold enough to gaze into the blazing eyes of your Savior. He died on a terrible cross to give you this access.

 
 
 

© Jessica Smith Art 2025

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